“Good Morning Mr Anxiety”
– A Poem by Rob, General Anxiety Disorder Sufferer
Urrrrrrgh! Ohhhh… Ohhh… Oh! Pffffff… huurrrgh… huurg… hurh
There it is then… Oh no!!
The hellish darkness I feel when I awake
The dark, thick black fog
The weight of a hundred elephants on my head
Shaking
The feeling of being alive but not as it used to be once upon a time when I felt normal.
You know, don’t you? You know damn well that I have a lot on today, don’t you?
I know you know… because I’m lying here dripping
You’ve been working away at my subconscious, haven’t you? Even while I sleep
Good morning My Anxiety… damn you!
Lie here for just a while
Oh yes, lie on my right with my hand on my face… that’s my little comfort position
Must get up soon… oh no!
Ok, up we get, straight to the loo for the first anxiety vomit of the day.
There, that’s better
Ok breakfast… can only manage yogurt for now
Cuppa, sit on sofa wrapped in comfort blanket
Where’s Rosie the cat? Come and sit on my lap Rosie? Stroke, Stroke… there, nice.
Sit back, breathe, stare out of the window at the roof tops – my comfort view
Have a little time, maybe ten minutes
Just breathe Robert
Close my eyes and count my breaths
Slowly, gently, peacefully
There…
This poem was written by Robert, one of our clients and active supporters. Robert wanted to share his experience of having a General Anxiety Disorder (GAD) to show others that they’re not alone.
For information and resources on how to manage your anxiety, we recommend visiting the Every Mind Matters page on Anxiety.
If you would like to share a poem, a blog, a song, a piece of artwork or your story with us so it can inspire and help you and others, we’d love to hear from you! Contact Connie at connie@maryfrancestrust.org.uk